A little something of life

Blog location changed..

2011-10-11T12:12:00.001-07:00

Hi everyone and thanks for have been following my blog!

However i'm gonna shut down this blog but before that i would like to let you guys know my other blog i've been running for a while now. Obviously there won't be much about my daily life as this one, more likely just for my photography purpose.
So if you guys still have some love for me, please give it a hit! ^_____^
Take care! <3

http://visionary-dreamz.blogspot.com/

Nobody's home

2010-09-20T12:04:00.000-07:00

We wish not to ruin your land. We wish not to make up any chaos. But just what some other might do that got us involved which we did not want to happen. Furthermore, hatred is what we fear the most. Bring NOT peace away from what we've been living for!

2010-09-16T11:24:00.000-07:00

"Why am i different from the other...?
-And why do you have to be like the other?!"

Honestly, i don't have any grudge against people who follow other's shadow, or don't even really care, but then i think, aren't they just beeing copycats?!
You were born because your mother wanted to have her own kid. It's not like she gave birth to you because of her neighbour just gave birth to your friend! If you understand what i'm trying to say...
So, why would you walk around and stare at stuffs that other people have and then running buy the same? Then, when you see somebody you know been staring at your stuff and the day after you see him/her using exactly same thing you got, you would go call her a copycat. Does it sound fair, you think?!

Have a good look at yourself and keep asking this to your very own shadow..."Why do i have to be like the other while i can be myself?!!" There is NO ONE and NO LAW on this earth to tell you that you can't be yourself!
This, is what i've been repeating to myself as well.

One of One Ok Rock lastest best song <3>

We are here to feel the joy....

2010-08-31T17:18:00.000-07:00

To put all worries and sorrow aside, to forget how life can be unfair sometimes, and to wipe away all tears that been pouring back inside. Forget not we are here on this earth to make joy and feel the joy. Forget not how we ten years ago running around with other kids hoping for tomorrow. We are not here to feel the blue...

Lately, i've been thinking to myself what keep me writing here. I have not taken any good photography to show you guys, my readers (if i even have any) or am i probably just simply write down my thoughts here and hope words of a little girls like me about life can reach you people out there. I have not learned what life really is, but one thing i'm sure about is i share what i get to learn and also wish to learn from you all. No one can survive alone!

A summer for us all.

2010-08-18T16:02:00.000-07:00

My last trip of this summer, Gothenburg, and Liseberg were we rocked the day away before we all get back to school and work.
Great times with people close to me are speechless wonderful. It makes me want to talk, which i usually don't do and i believe i talked pretty much this day we were at Liseberg. x)

Everything has its' limit and every joy has its' time as well. I had much fun this summer and now it's time to get back to reality. Of course i wish i could just continue having fun like this but unfortunately life isn't that simple. And it doens't look very balanced to me right now but since i know there are people who are fighting hard so i will face it as well, and so i hope you all also fighting for it.

Give me!!! T____T

2010-08-10T15:21:00.000-07:00

Seagull

Lensbaby Composer

Pro Digital Fashion Photography: A Complete Reference Guide to the Tools and Techniques of Successful Digital Fashion Photography

Oh dear, sometimes i wish money can give birth to money...like now =| Guess i just have to be patient and save up to get these T.T
Patient Vicky, patient... =|

Helsingborg 2010

2010-08-02T16:33:00.001-07:00

Yes!! Finally took the chance to travel a little bit summer, not so far but still pretty far from home, far from jobs and boring daily days x)
First time being in Helsingborg, Sweden, attended the festival and walked on the roads holding beautiful buildings. Even though i was there only during one weekend but it was fun enough, more things happened than i expected but it was all worth it.

I liked this church a lot, the whole building was huge and so powerful when you standing on the ground looking up at it.

hehe no i didn't bring this Kitty with me, we won it from the game in the festival ^^

Miss no-good...

2010-07-21T16:35:00.000-07:00

So much to think, so much to be done and to have grasp of, yet nothing is done for good.
My health doesn't really look good either...
Everything seems so boring right now, nothing is happening and my mind is somewhere else far away, beyond yet above everything.

I need a little escape...

We were two..

2010-07-15T15:52:00.000-07:00

Oh how it felt great and warm in the heart to have such beautiful friend joining me by the window looking outside the sunny day. How was the weather, my friend?
And to have him standing on my hand flaping his wings toward the wind, high up in the air was even a greater feeling...

You have seen it all through the glass, you have known where you have to be. Fly, to where you belong and fly free!

Happy birthday 1412!

Summer feel

2010-07-14T15:28:00.000-07:00

So colorful, so many noises yet so peaceful in a way...
A summer afternoon is the best thing i know. Listening to sounds of insects while the heat of the sun burning my skin slowly and the wind pass me by. With closed eyes i fall asleep lying outside in the sunny afternoon like this and that is one best thing i would never ask for more.
Life could be simple sometimes and don't even cost a coin.

yes this is me with gray lenses and tanned skin, dyed my hair again too ^^!

Sommer sale! Anyone? ^^

2010-07-12T11:47:00.000-07:00

check them out HERE and for more!!

Great composer, great voices!

2010-07-10T10:39:00.000-07:00

Song - Red moon
Composer - Yuki Kajura
Group - Kalafina

Powerful song, amazing angelic voices yet screaming like lost souls... For you who are into Gothic, enjoy!

Yup..waiting patient for my black violin to come..can't wait to hear the sound of it... x)

Dawn.

2010-07-08T15:31:00.000-07:00

and there was fire burning on the the velvet sea for a short moment...

I saw it spliting into pieces and and gone with the wind leaving it all for the night to fall over.
Oh how i wished it to last...

Release me..

2010-07-07T14:59:00.000-07:00

What do you do when you have to work for every coin of money closing you mind while you heart is screaming for freedoom?!
Born as an bohèmienne, life for you is about dancing and creating all kind of art. The best things in life are free, you don't want any money but just to be wonderful.

But that kind of life, how am i suposed to make in this 21 century of the earth. Am i able to see the mother nature all over the world before the harmony is gone?!

Awsome designers around the world!

2010-07-01T16:03:00.000-07:00

Frankie & Morello

Byblos

Junn.J

CHRISTOPHE JOSSE

ELIE SAAB

LEFRANC.FERRANT

>CHICCA LUALDI BEEQUEEN

>SEDUZIONI DIAMONDS VALERIA MARINI

Limi Feu

LISA ROMANYUK

Paul & Joe

A.F. Vandevorst

JEAN-CHARLES DE CASTELBAJAC

Martin Grant

John Richmond

There are plenty of amazing designers out there i know =) here are just some of them that i fell for their taste of fashion and creation. Hm..if i was rich, of course, i would buy these pieces. But well, IF!! xD

Moonlight...

2010-06-27T16:43:00.000-07:00
So big, so bright, so full, and filled of so much emotions of everything.
Juni night, close to the end of the month, a night of harmony by all elements on earth, 25th Juni. This night, i saw the moonlight, i saw the clouds, listened to the rain poured down on the grass, felt the gentle wind blew through my hair and upon my eyes while my feet standing on earth.

Forget not, what is given is not the same as to be taken away, and to take away what is not given is unforgiveable...

Toward the future...

2010-06-19T15:37:00.000-07:00
This time i don't know how to start, really... time is moving way too fast and i can never manage to have a grasp of it. Yesterday i wanted to learn what life is, today i want to learn how to live a life, tomorrow i probalby learning how to treasure one's life...

Had my graduation last week. Three years passed by so fast, learned a lot but still not yet learned to be a woman, wish i could have done it better... But i still have a long way ahead, my life of an adult starting from here....Hello tomorrow!

And a new chapter....

2010-06-09T09:21:00.000-07:00
Finally done this last year of school, oh how i've been longing for this moment...Now i'm free from all the depressions of those years x) Of course more studying is to come later on, but before that, there are many wishes i need to fullfill first...

Although a lot of things happen everyday around us, bad and good things, i still wish you all a great summer. As long you are alive, there is always tomorrow!

Another fansign for me, and as well, i did one back =)

Wonderful week.

2010-06-02T05:02:00.000-07:00
Been a great week so far, the sun is shining outside, temperatur getting warmer, summer is here!
Got my salery, bought new clothes and prepare for graduation...came to school with a suprise knowing that i just won diplom with the title "Picture of the year" in my school, not a single thought that i would win that title, really felt warm inside. =) All good things so far.
I hope you all are also having good times!

and my latest work for Karlstad's gradution....looking forward to see it printed hanging at the center square x)

Chasing a life..

2010-05-31T16:11:00.000-07:00
Doesn't matter how tuff things around you can be, how blue you are feeling, all you still have to do is live on and endure it, and then become stronger day after day.
You might cry, you might suffer, you might be angry, dissapointed, and then you laugh, it's all going up and down. But that is what we meant to live for, to learn what life is...
So feel it, see it, and chase it! Because it's only given once...

uhm...yes i did dye my hair again, i like it this time too =)

Mr.Sun, please shine!

2010-05-19T04:13:00.000-07:00
So much to think, so much to do, so much to endure... yet life is unfair.
"There is always tomorrow as long you are alive." Just have to think positive i guess..

Pang! Monkey pose! =)))))

A rose, a woman...

2010-05-17T11:55:00.000-07:00
Rose is one of the most sensitive flowers... You have to treat it carefully if you want it to bloom perfectly and last long in it's beauty. And so are women...

Oh i LOVE fruits!!

2010-05-15T16:08:00.000-07:00
Been sick this week, not that i wanted to but well, out of the plan x) Anyway, kind of recoverd now, and not just my health is recovered, but also my skin...doesn't make sense i know but i suddenly noticed it started to get smoothier somehow and the color is turning fair enough. So let me tell you fast and clear....
During the time i was sick, lying at home, i ate a lot of fruits to get vitamins and drank the heck lot of water, went to hot spa, and overall not wearing any make up at all. It took me only 5 days of doing these things to get healthy skin, plus that i don't smoke, means it's even easier for my skin to recover.
Well that was my case. Of course that we girls don't walk around without make up in daily but if it is possible, use it as less as possible, and feed your skin with creams instead. Easy tricks but some find them hard to do, i know. =)

and here i am, after a few days being sick, pretty hapy with my skin righ now, think i'm gonna keep up with eating fruits, drinking lot of water and go to hot spa hihi ~~
No hard make up here, and yes, no circle lenses, no lashes, just simply me =)

My little High Fashion project..

2010-05-05T15:33:00.000-07:00
Finally done...YES YES YES!! All the hard works paid off. I'm still not so satisfied with the results but what can i do, just blaming myself of being lack of skills, but that is why i'm learning, yet. =)
Here are some shoots from my 9Xproject, i can't express enough how thankful and amazed i am by all the involved members who put their time and courage into this project together with me..
Please pay a visit to the website as well for more photographies and information! I didn't have enough time to work on a proper domain, will get back to that later on. =)
Enjoy the photos! Hope you like what you see...

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Came across a soft wonderful song lately... Not much to say about it, read the translated lyric and if you feel what i mean =) The translation is a little bit out of connection between phrases sometimes but try to imagine it.

Romanji
We are nearly grown up now
and time is getting short
Even though things greatly changed around us
we didn't want to change ourselves
Will this feeling last forever?
Can our uncertainty be wiped away?
Will dreams of tomorrow definitely come true?
The days are running by

Petals softly, softly begin to
flutter like they're dancing
It is definitely a new season
You must not forget the tears -
now they're just faint memories
underneath the cherry trees

In this moment, we can't go back again
but there's something I tried to feel
Longing for a day of freedom
together with a friend I could love
Lost and worried, while wandering around
something sparkled

Goodbye softly, softly holding memories
in my heart until the day we will
certainly meet again
Chasing dreams in the same sky
now they're just a whisper

A future bright and it feels right
I can't describe it fully
Look up, look up there's not a cloud
in the clear blue sky
Tears can't overflow more than this

Petals softly, softly begin to
flutter like they're dancing
It is definitely a new season
You must not forget the tears -
now they're just faint memories

Goodbye softly, softly holding memories
in my heart until the day we will
certainly meet again
Chasing dreams in the same sky
now they're just a whisper
underneath the cherry trees

Added by Floradrama on Jpopasia

Higher and higher...

2010-05-04T04:52:00.000-07:00
Not that i enjoy climbing, but there would be no goal if i don't have to climb up...
Not that i enjoy being outside in the cold at night, but there would be no stars in my eyes if i don't have to endure a little pain...

This is life! This, is the moment i treasure every step that i take, every centimet that i get higher to reach the destination that i have to see...
And my turn for a new chapter is here, i thank you for revealing me the path that i'm taking and thank you for waking me up before my final time...

I came to understand....

2010-04-23T14:45:00.000-07:00
When I was younger I always thought of myself as a selfish one and tried to understand why we human are born selfish. Later on I learned what selfishness could be in a relationship and one beautiful day somebody told me there could be another kind of selfishness, self-centeredness and the different between them which could make you into a great partner to another if you fully understand it.

There is no real relationship without loving oneself. Without the love of one's own self, self-love, we are not magically able to give what we don't have to another. Nor are we able to receive it from another. When we truly love our self we have to be self-centered, that’s the spirit within us that allow us to gain divine selfishness to give each other in our relationships. Thus if we are centered upon the highest within ourselves, we can see the highest within our beloved as well.
Human selfishness, on the other hand, takes us away from love. When we are centered upon our human desires, we live out of fear and try to get as much as we can from other, rather than wanting to give all we can...

Enough of that... i haven't been taking pictures lately, feel so not alive right now..went ego again but still didn't get the right feeling, but at least i still was myself while being egoist x) Well, my face is soon to be out of camera's sight soon.. i will just be happy standing behind the camera instead lol!
Hope i can take some real photography soon...

Forever in my heart....

2010-04-12T13:45:00.000-07:00
Gorgeous, powerful, phenomenal, passionate and deep....and that's my words for this favourite Visual Kei band of mine. Haven't seen this video for a while and now watching it again, loved their style once and gonna love it forever! One more thing that i want their clothings .... >.<

anyway, not so new but enjoy! x)

A gift for my world...

2010-03-30T09:23:00.000-07:00
A month ago, i asked a friend, who is a truly artist with Graffiti and painting, to paint a Sakura tree om a wall of my hideoutspace.... It has been exact a month and this is the result...This is my love of my world, bring me back to the Oriental Japanese, deeply. I still haven't thanked you enough, my friend!

In the same day, i received these pictures from the shoot last week by Emma...second time i took a shot with her =) This is so truly me and most natural of me that she captured so pure....love these!

and yup, i know i'm old now....so no more cute or kawaii or sowhatever =P

Certified rapstar

2010-03-23T04:42:00.000-07:00
Took part of this music video and it's finally out ... He's good, please be nice to him ;)

I was one of the dancers and the one in cap, i's all blured so i can't see my face either haha. But it was fun to take par of it.
Good luck for this rapstar!

Dance, dance and dance...

2010-03-16T14:08:00.000-07:00
Having a lot of practise lately...we're going to put many shows this period. So much pain, sweats and fun. My life cannot be better than now! x)
Also had my pictures in an exhibition, all the hard works paid off with glory, i may say... I will work harder for more moments like this to come.

My proudness x)

Beautiful Saturday

2010-03-06T14:43:00.000-08:00
Sunny, windless, and chill. Had a wander in town with my brother and did little shopping...although i didn't buy anything really, i don't find my style of clothes in my town really... would rather buy from internet =)
Took a picture before we went out....my outfit of the day.

Like chosing shoes..

2010-03-06T01:23:00.000-08:00
How do you choice a man or a boyfriend? I know many girls only choice by the appereance, and some choice by the inside...
But have you ever thought, a man is like a pair of shoes that should fit your feet perfectly and treasure your feet? When we're looking at shoes, we firstly choice by the appereance that we like, then we try them on to see if they fit well. A pair of perfectly shoes for your feet would never hurt you while you're walking around with them in any situation.

Went to cinema with Anders, my little friend. We saw "Alice in Wonderland", i liked it to be honest. It was so much fantasy and you can really get a lot insperations.

A true rival...

2010-03-01T06:23:00.000-08:00
Never expected to meet another self of mine but yet feel so powerful... and yet in the same age. Except that we have different dreams, but i was somewhat shocked... This is the first time i really want to be better than myself!

A recommend J-metal song with female vocalist... It's a little bit of screamo...but i like the song though, it's sexy, in my opinion x)

Dazzle Vision - Crash in 2

And another fansign for me ... I feel somehow a litte bit special to get fansigns... these girls are so sweet!! =D

"Inside out"

2010-02-27T16:20:00.000-08:00

More shots for the project "Inside out".
Clothes and Accessories by Isabelle & Madeleine.

Model : Minna.M
MUA: Linnea.R

Model & Make up: Ellen.N

This kind of activity is really fun! I really enjoyed the whole photo shoot from beginning till the end. Hope i will have more chance to do more this kind of shoot! =)

Great people, great works, great courage and great time.

2010-02-26T17:08:00.000-08:00
Had a photo shoot today for some designed clothes and accessories. I was planing for this a week before and it was finally shoot time. It was fun, at least it was for me, i really enjoyed it and amazing feeling in the end during the last shots of Ellen. She's an amazing skilled model, really inspired me.
For the project "Inside out"
Model: Ellen.N
Photo & Process: me of course =P

Will upload the rest of other models later.... I'm pretty sleepy right now. =)

Another passion....

2010-02-25T10:48:00.000-08:00
Beside Photography, i love to dance, and i always try to dance with my heart. Although i'm not any good in dancing, but i know that i dance with my feeling for the music. I dance the way i feel...
A guy i know in our dancing hall filmed me while i was freestyle to a chill bittersweet song... pretty like modern jazz dancing, i'm not sure, but it was not street dance =)

If you're a dancer and happen to see this, don't be dhy to tell me my misstakes so i can get better =)

Eyecandies II

2010-02-23T11:11:00.000-08:00

You know..i like to see beautiful creatures...and who don't? hmm...they're just jealous if they don't x)
and these beautiful "creatures" warm up my heart in this cold winter days...<3

阿帆-A Fan is his name, a member of HIT-5 pop group

连勋-Lian Xun

Hera

Time don't wait for anyone...

2010-02-22T15:15:00.000-08:00
I have so many thoughts, thoughts of the past and for the future, and yet, the present. We all do have thoughts.
I know the present and then i look forward for a bright future, but it's the present that lead me to the furture. Although sometimes i look back to the past...Would i have done that? Or shouldn't i done this?... We all learn from what happened in the past and make a better future with the experience we learned.

But hey...time ain't waiting for anyone, if you can't see a bright future, then don't see any further while your vision is clear. Just do what you have to do and don't waste your time goofing around before it's too late.
And this, i shall tell myself aswell....

Mix style headphone.

2010-02-21T10:58:00.000-08:00
Finally mine!! Yay! Worth all the work for...
These headphone are original from Korea. But you can also find them on ebay for really cheap, but those are just fake that made in China. Get them from Korea if you want real stuff!!

Another fansign..this girl saw my first fansign and showed me a crying smiley, so i made her one too since i know her a little bit, otherwise i wouldn't make one.

That's it for today, now i'm going to learn how to make pudding ! x)

A test for eyeglasses...

2010-02-16T15:20:00.000-08:00

Heard they're making a commercial video for a eyeglasses store, and they wanted some pictures... Suddenly i was involved x) It was so unexpected, but the shoot was really fun, although it was just a test.
I really look forward to do the real shoot for that store! =)

Like a 30 years old...

2010-02-13T16:18:00.000-08:00
Life sure is not easy, in fact, it's much tiresome and painful, thus deeper than you think it is. For some reason things are just coming upon my head like a train. I still have a lot to do at school beside keeping up with my hobbies, plus i need to search for jobs and stuffs, i feel like a working machine but not doing things properly at the same time... I guess my brain need to rest proper, i need more sleep. It's really also not good for my skin and my look, since i started to sleep after 24am, i really feel like i look like a 30 years old with all the eyebags and the tireness in my eyes...I ain't no longer a seventeen....

Took my time this weeken and worked with some pictures i took from last Autuum....kind of classic portraits...What do you think? =)

Model: Björn Axelsson
MUA: Tina Thornberg

Model: Minna Marand
MUA: Tina Thornberg

Model: Sofia Spännar
MUA:me

Fansign?

2010-02-12T13:54:00.000-08:00
Well..kind of new to me lol... Some weeks ago i was just joking to a little friend when i saw she made fansigns for her friend, i asked her to make me a fansign too, but never thought she would do it for real ...=)))) Then, here it is, she really made me one, and aswell wanted me to make one for her too. This turned out like sisters love hehe...

Bought a new jacket from Carlings yesterday...not really jacket either. It's damn nice, suit my style perfect as dancer! Worth the money!

It's a tiger imprints on the back and the words of "Tigers lounge". Nice huh? When i saw this whole thing, i wanted to make an asian dance crew with this name...Tigers lounge.
I've just changed my House course to Raggea, never dance this style before....but well... House to Raggea will not gonna be easy. I'll just give it a try.

Rockholics.

2010-02-08T10:57:00.000-08:00
Had a friend visiting me last week, Sofia, she's a nice chic! We call her "SS", Sexy Sofia =P
I made us some woked noodles for dinner, then we came up with some ego pictures ... lol . Well, it was a lot of fun!

Today was the first day i got back to school again after my internship. Now i don't care if it's fun or not to be back to school, but i'm sure i need to work my ass off before it ends, if i don't want to repeat another year that's it.

And another valentine...

2010-02-02T15:11:00.000-08:00

For all the lovers out there, i wish you'll have a great comming Valentine! Make sure to spend it worthful! =)
For me, there will be works only, that's my kind of Valenine huh ... lol. I don't mind it though x)

I was just trying to make a look for a music video i'm taking part of. It's nothing big though, i'll post the video when it's done. =)

Zeni Geba

2010-01-31T10:21:00.000-08:00
I've been watching a Jdrama called "Zeni Geba" during this weekend. It's a very good drama for you who want to learn about this world where money is on the top of everything...
Zeni Geba = Money crazy.

Beside, the main character is my favourite actor too... Matsuyama Kenichi.... you can recognize him as L from DeathNote.

"In order to win, you must be prepared to lose!"
This is what i learned from this drama. Watch it and you'll understand the rules of this rotten world where everyone live for money. But understand it in a good way.

Born into a burden...

2010-01-25T14:53:00.000-08:00
I have enough food to eat everyday, yet i'm complaining...
I let my friend dying before my eyes only thought of myself...
I want too much yet i want more...
but in the end, i have nothing that releases life in me and turning myself into a burden...

"Because i'm dying too...!"

Gackt-sama

2010-01-24T08:09:00.000-08:00
I wasn't a fan of the legendary Jrocker Gackt, but i do admire his talents and even love some of his songs. This is one of the newest songs...."The end of silence"

as you can hear this is kind of composition of Japanese traditional music style and European classical. Gackt sure made a good one out of it. I love this song!

I've never been looking at Gack's pictures, but today, i did it. And found out that he actually did some kind of facial surgery, of course, every famous people do have surgery, more or less.
But there was one picture of him that suprised me a little bit... it was when he had long hair, dressed in a samurai in some movie. He looked like someone i meet in my dream, someone that was waiting for me, i still haven't forgot that face.
It was indeed a man with long black hair, dressed in hakama and kimono, sitting beside his sword on the floor inside a dojo. And when i arrived, he turned his back giving me such sad eyes. But he was a handsome young man. I woke up at the at moment, i don't know if i came there for the samurai to kill me or to be loved, i don't know, wish i could continue that dream...
eh...perhaps i'm too addicted to the accient Japanese.

2010-01-18T15:56:00.000-08:00
So white, so pure, yet so cold. As cold as the humanity. They don't see me, they don't care, they step on me behind my back. But i'm okey...because i'm colder than the snow even...

Hirooka Naoto

2010-01-18T04:02:00.001-08:00
About three years ago when i was a member of a japanese meeting forum, i met a guy called himself Hirooka Naoto.
He was a kind of weird guy and very quickly in getting to know people, at least it was the way i saw he was. He was very open in the way he talked, saying he was in that site just for some entertainment because of he works too much and stuffs.... Back then i didn't know who he was. But i've never thought i would find out who he is, today.
I know that guy might be the fake Naoto, but who know he might be the real one that i once had a very honor to get a talk with him.... Hirooka Naoto (known as H.Naoto), the best Punk Rock Gothic Lolita designer of Japan.

Isn't he such a creative person to the max?! I love his designs!

Indian temptation.

2010-01-16T14:36:00.000-08:00
I had a photo shoot today with an idea that i came up a couple of months ago, an Indian beauty. Guess i'm so much interested in portrait.
Alright, here is what we've done today...
model: Mona Mirza
make up: Tina Thornberg
photo/process: me

I'm really satisfied with this shoot, we did a good job and it was a wrap! =)

Oh...the modell is beautiful i know =P Enjoy everyone, hope you like them!

There was a time....

2010-01-15T12:25:00.000-08:00

There was a dream that i was dreaming about...and now when i look at those kind of pictures, they remind me so much of having my teenager dream that i was one holding to dear... To be a Cosplayer.
It's not easy to cosplay as you think it is. If you just try to look like a character with whatever you find around you and put them on, doesn't matter the qualiy. Then i call it a piece of shit... That's how it was for me. I, who cannot accept low quality stuffs, because of that i didn't have enough money to afford the cosplaying. I was able to manage two cosplay seasons and that was how far it went. I gave up that dream till today.
I do not know when i can cosplay again, or perhaps it was the limit for me... Of course, i wish i was rich. But maybe it's another dream to be rich.
And so...i had boring again because of all these thoughts, i went for another cam-whoring ^^!

I wish...

2010-01-14T15:35:00.000-08:00
"When you're out of cash, that's when you want to shop the most."
Somebody said this, i don't know who but it's so true ._____. Look, what have i done again, i've looking at some clothing, planed to get grip of the latest Jrock styles, but then, i got stuck on this outfit... T____T I WANT THIS so bad =( either the white one or black one. I'm so in love with trashie styles!!

Guess i'll wait till the end of this month to get these =/
By the way, found out an awsome JRock band with crazy awsome female vocal...Dazzle Vision...her voice is so sweet, so intension, explosive, and crazy.... She's GOOOOOODDDD!
Enjoy!

Memories stay...

2010-01-10T17:44:00.000-08:00
The year of 2009 had passed with full of laziness, boringdoom and al of this kind of things, well, at least it was for me. Let's hope things will turn out better this year.
Near the end of the year, i hung around with my brother visiting two birthdays of his friends, kind of entertainment hihi...

Gnosjö

and Örebro...of course, all in Sweden.

Guess what.... my favourite JRock band, High and mighty color has changed their vocalist, a new girl, Halca. All i can say is that she has a pretty voice, yes she does. She probably loves hardrock as much as i do but even so, her voice suit better for pop...Gomen ne Halca-san =S

Well, listen and jugde it yourself... this is one of their new songs, "good bye".

Toward new year.

2009-12-28T04:16:00.000-08:00
Aloha people!
How was your Christmas? Mine was chill...We had a little dinner in the evening with some typical Swedish traditional dishes...exchanged gifts and that was it...not us fun as in Asia i bet but well, we enjoyed it.

Soon it's new year, i hope you guys have good plans to spend the moment with each other. Me, i'm pretty sure it's gonna be a chill New year too, i have my own plan in my own way hehe....
and here is some pictures Vincent took for me in Christmas morning, we just had a little too much time lol... Anyway, they are good...i like them

Photo by Vincent
Process by me

Happy New Year everyone! Hope you enjoy it with an opened mind and wided vision!

And the snow is here...

2009-12-20T10:12:00.000-08:00
I can smell the cold breeze in the air and the snow drops are falling down on my cheeks....winter is here, Christmas is here. Merry Christmas everyone!

My life had been silent since the Christmas three years ago, a bitter silent that i don't know the reasons i've become. But i wish not to become unseen and frozen. There are only people who really know me that know me for who i am and what i've become. I am not a lost child.

Some photographies i just done with recently, better to be done with them before new year =)Hope you enjoy!

Elin Laven.
Photo and Process by me
Sanaria.E
Photo and process by me.
and here is just a test taken by my brother, Vincent Le.
Make up & process by me.
I was just trying to test on the make up that i will for another model, soonly.... I wasn't really satisfied, but well...i'll do better in the real shoot.

Finally arrived...

2009-12-16T13:35:00.000-08:00
I was waiting for some stuffs for my little baby, Aris since last month, and now they're finally came to me. Oh, Aris is the name of my camera, i gave it a name since i see it as a partner to me, really.
The suffs i recieved was a battery grip and a cable to the hand flash so i can be able to move the flash wherever i want and get whatever lighting strike i'd like, good stuff eh. =)
Let's say my birthday is your birthday, Aris, and these are for you...

me in working status and that little baby is Aris x)

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I found myself an interesting toy today....a tilt shift lens for Canon, TS-E45mm f/2,8. This one is probable the best among the tilt shitfs, aside of the 90mm. God, i want this...it's so expensive, wish it could just drop to me from the heaven above..... *drool*

A birthday for me..

2009-12-13T14:45:00.000-08:00
Let us first not asking for old am i, i had a great day for a birthday. No party, no invitations, no big deal, we just went for a litte shopping and then ate sushi at the most exclusive sushi bar, later we went for pool, and that was enough =)

Took a picture of my brother.

The food tasted good, it was not perfect as i thought i would be but, let's say i would give 3,5/5 for this sushi bar ...

"pool-ing", trust me i missed that one =)))

Really...wish i have a little more time nowadays so i can work with pictures...i had no idea it would turn out like this. I also just got a job offer at the sushi bar i ate this day too, exciting yes, let's see now it'll go....

A day with Andrea...

2009-11-26T14:07:00.000-08:00

Wow..it's been almost a week already...time sure don't wait for anyone or anything.
My pratise period had started this week, i'm still not used to it yet but i'm trying the best of me, i hope. I only wish that i could understand Swedish better, or that my Boss could talk English in daily so i can understand and do the works better. I don't like being a useless "thing" that stuck in the way for anyone, hate that feeling.

Enough of that, before the practise, i had a day associate with Andrea, a sweet girl in my class. We just happen to associate, beside that we dance together about once a week. She a very nice and understanding girl, me like. =)

Yes yes...we are going to win the ugly girls competition, eh? LMAO!!

I have pretty much to do now, beside the practise, i still have lots of homeworks to do and many pictures to work with....gonna take up some energy drinks again, really...

Ellen

2009-11-22T12:44:00.000-08:00
Sunday today, yup, and time just flies by when you have fun.
I took my time today to work with pictures of Ellen i took about a month ago. She's a great model, she totally have everything a professional model need, a gorgeous face, the slim and tall body, and expression skill. But she's not working for any agency yet, she's trying to get into one anyway, which she should do. =)

Anyway, here she is, i give you Ellen.N

Hm.....yes i know, i will keep on improving my retouch skill, i know i have to.

Sweet girls.

2009-11-21T10:45:00.000-08:00
A couple weeks ago i had a little shoot for two young sweet girls, one is hairdresser to be, the other make up artist to be. Since i'm joining their projekt as modell so i took a little time of mine to make a shoot for them so they could use the pictures for the project.
They are young but i recognize they way they work is very professional, real hard worker, i like them. =)
And here, i give you Raven and Tina.

I finally bought a new laptop, Photoshop CS4 and got everything on track again. So now i have very many pictures to work with. It's tiredsome, but i'm glad that i'm able to continue with my passion again hihi...

Another late night...

2009-11-20T17:43:00.000-08:00
No i didn't stay up this night to work, which i supposed to... didn't feel like it. So i surf around and found myself at a blog of somebody i knew before. She was learning herself to a photographer and still doing so. She surely improved alot... my head frozed when i saw her works. I didn't work hard enough... Perhaps it's time to wake up...

Went to the salsa course today, there was only 4 people, many other were busy and so the guy i met last time. What did i expect? Silly....

Here we go again, some pictures i had last month....Really, i don't look like this usually, i mean, all the make up and hair fix... i think it's naturally that girls want to be pretty in pictures x)

I want to change my blog banner, have an idea already for it....not will take time to make one, well.... i will make it soon or later.

Please take care, everyone!

Work of Andreas.

2009-11-19T04:54:00.000-08:00
A couple of months ago i was attending a photoshoot av Andreas Reichenberg, as make-up artist. I believe it was his first time trying model photoshoot. After that he didn't have time to do retouch, but now he finally did it. I got some pictures from Sofia, one of the models.

He borrowed a ferrary and another sport car for this shoot...cool right? =D
Model: Sofia & Sofie
Photographer: Andreas Reichenberg
MUA & Stylist: me
Sorry if the photos are too small =S

Salsa...

2009-11-13T14:12:00.000-08:00

Today i've finally join the salsa course, it's not really a course actually...more then an open course for anyone to step inside the hall... I've decided to step in!
It was great, a whole new style for me, much different from streetdances, a whole new experince.... oh dear, i just have to much to tell, and that it felt so different.

I used to have a boring feeling when watch a movie there a couple dance in a lonely room and just the two of them, i always felt it would be much more fun if there were more people and dance in a group, well, typical streetdance i know. But today, i finally understand why it's a pleasure to dance in a couple and a romantic dance. Even though i just started the salsa today, totally beginner, but it's indeed that i could feel the feeling for a man and a women on a dancefloor. I'm not talking about all of the sexy, raggea style or whatever you see in a nightclub. I'm talking about the beautiful dance, the smotth moves of a combination between a man and a women and how the women just follow the man's lead. It's romantic and sexy at the same time, or, a romantic sexiness. Really, i've never thought i would have this kind of feeling, i've never thought i would be taking a salsa class before. But now, i even want to try Fox Strox, or whatever is the name, it's a shame that they don't have any course of it here where i live. Oh my, when did i become such a romancer?!
Anyway, i need to practise on the salsa step from now on...i wonder how this will go...practise of house, news style, hip hop and salsa.....a challenge for any dancer.

And here, a spam! =P
I'm into ballad recently, Korean ballad. It's not that bad to give my heart a little of love =)

Something like Bibimbap?

2009-11-08T14:40:00.000-08:00
About a month ago, when me and my brother watched a documentary about Korean food on TV and feel in love with a traditional dish called "Bibimbap". Since we both wanted to try it badly, i decided to give it a shot....
Two weeks after, also, last week, i finally made the "Bibimbap" dish. Of course it was not exactly like what we saw, since i only saw it once on the documentary, and it was impossible to find the ingredients, plus it's hard to make something that you've never tasted before. But still, i made it, my "Bibimbap"

It's kind of a Vietnamese Bibimbap, i know haha... but the hard works paid off, my brother seemed to like it, he ate alot, also did my mother. I guess it was a success then =)
Further more, i will try to improve my cooking skill, really, i love Japanese and Korean foods, therefore i think a will buy a book one day, or search on internet, perhaps and learn to make more traditional dishes of these country....But first, i'd like to learn making Kimchi x)
By the way, i was caught with totally no make up, no lenses, NOTHING, in this picture xD Hope i didn't scare you.....X_x
Girls love shopping! Indeed, i was supposed to have my shoe repair today, but after leaving that shoe to the repairman, i saw a pairt of cute fur shoes on the way back...oh my, i was needing them, it's winter soon...and so i went in the store and got them at any cost. They were not too expensive, and are really warm..just perfectly!
and the seller was very friendly, and i mean VERY =) I just like the energy she had, hihi...
Alright, a featured song from my very favorite Vietnamese rock band, enjoy.....
Microwave - Chỉ là giấc mơ (It's only a dream)

Eyecandies.

2009-11-04T04:42:00.000-08:00

What do you think of when you hear this word?
e..y..e..c..a..n..d..i..e..s.....mmmmmmm ~~

haha, drooling? No? I do! x)
Honestly, i can look at those pretty people all day long without being tired. I'm not saying i'm mentally sick, pervert or anything, i just have a habbit to enjoy the beauti, all kind of beauti in this world.
Alright, here i shall post up about some of beautiful asian people... take a look clearly, your eyes never lie xD

KINGBOO (Chinese)

her blog

IZUMIIA (Chinese)

her blog

Will continuew more late, have to go..annyong~~

Unstopable rain.

2009-10-28T15:28:00.000-07:00
If you ask me to describe this October month, i have only one word...
troublesome.
All of the school, jobs, all the thoughts, even my personality is just giving me problem, and for once i forgot who i was. Now that i've overcome it but i'm still suffering because the pain is still remain and nothing ever changed. What i need is still long way ahead of me, i have to maintain constent.
Life is not easy, but it's only given once, that's the only good answer enough for us to live our life fullfilled and the hard times will be paid off. It's hard to think positive when fate is not smiling at you. I, used to tell my girl friends "Be strong, be smart, and be beautiful! ", now it's about time for me to tell myself this. Now matter how hard things might end up, we have to stay strong, use our brain to survive meanwhile our heart still remain beautiful in the end.
I might sound "old-fashioned", but then, just let it be that way.

By the way, here goes some of my recently make up works.

Model: Frida
Photographer: Christer.P

Model: Sofia.S
Photographer: Emma.B

Fat?!

2009-10-12T15:31:00.000-07:00
uhm... what to do...i've been careless about my body recently and now i realized that my stomach have gained some kilos ... WHAT TO DO?!!
Seriously, i need to get back to extreme training and diet immedietly... this is the period that we, girls can easily gain weight if we don't watch out, damn it...

Aside from that "bad new", i have a good new as well. My house dancing is getting better, thanks to the House course i joined and to all my friends who taught me the feeling of House. =) Hopefully i can make a new video soon.

ehm...some random pictures of me again as well ^^!
(pretty bad quality, they were taken at night with a powershot camera, you see that i didn't even do anything to my skin, totally non retouch)
By the way, another featured photographer, Andreas Reichenberg, I worked as make up artist for him once, it was a very cool theme he had, and his pictures are just amazing! Please visit his website! =)

And again...

2009-10-10T11:12:00.000-07:00
Here i an again and dyed my hair. I dyed it into darker color instead of lighten it up, average blonde that's it. Now i'm pretty much satisfy, finally =)

it looks much better now, the color looks much more elegant in reality.
Not long ago i was talking about acting, and then, some couple days after that i got invited to play one of the main roll in a short movie. Wow yeah? I was recomended by a friend, and the guy who is going to make this movie is also a student who has last year project. I've been told a little about the character i will play, she seems very interesting and i really want to play that kind of character also.
I haven't heard when we will start to shoot, but i hope it will be a serious movie making, although it's just a short movie. Because i'm really ready to take acting seriously.
Alright, enough for that talk, here's a featured song from Tae Goon, i fell for it recently. =)

2009-10-06T13:52:00.000-07:00
What to say...Thess took some pictures of me today during photography lesson. It was suposed to be some pictures with the rain and me holding umbrella. But it didn't really rain in time as the weather reporter said, so it turned out with pictures that i was longing for the rain instead.
There was one picture that she took our of random that i really like after doing progressing, i tried to make it like a documentery photo or a scence from movie, looks pretty good, i love the feeling of it, "walking my path" like .... =)
Here it is...

and here goes the other photos ....

All photos taken by Thess Östman
Progressing by me

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School uniform, you ask?
I do wear schook uniform, i love to wear it, although we don't have such kind of clothes here in Sweden. But i'm missing it time to time, that's why i wear it as much i can, and i would just put anything together to make it look like a school uniform. Sad, but what can i do.. if our school have such kind of outfit for student, how much i could have treasure it, i tell you.

3 degrees....

2009-10-04T08:04:00.000-07:00
We had a little photo shoot today for Sofia, with the photographer i'm about to co-operate with as a make up artist. Today was the first time to do make up for her shoot, just TFP-job thought, but we learn to know each other for easier work in the future. So i did make up for Sofia, the model, i was really satisfy with it, since i really prepared for it two days before.
I haven't got any pictures yet, i saw some turned out very good. But i've got pictures of mine, well, i jumped in some pictures with the idea of High school gangster i had in my mind ..hehe.. and i tell you what... it was around 3 degrees, no sun shine and it was windy...i think you can manage how cold it is. Indeed, me and Sofia were shaking like chicken, Sofia tried to smoke as soon she got the chance to ..lol me, i don't smoke, i was just holing the ciggar for the photo purpose =)

It was so cold and my hair got f*cked up in the end .____.

Please visit her website for more great photography (it's in Swedish), and you who happen to live in Sweden, take a chance to visit her studio and have some photo shoot (i'll be your make up artist ;P )

September sun..

2009-09-27T12:52:00.000-07:00
It's been sunny for a week recently, meanwhile harder wind, small dusk drop of rain, and the leaves turning yellow. Must be time for Autumm to come. Today, six years ago, i had my first steps on Swedens mark. The brezze that i felt, i still can feel it clearly, the smell of september... Everytime this month pass by, i know that soon i will get one more year older, and this year, 19...fast right? And i not yet know how to be a Lady, childish me ...=)

"Child, be beautiful, but not just on the surface. Shine your heart from the inside also."
I remember my grandmother told me this, and i remember how my tears almost bursted out hearing this, thinking how stupid i must been trying to be a kind of business type that i never was and never meant to be.
Further more, i keep also remember what my father said yesterday when i talked to him through the phone. This time i was suprised to hear it from no one else but him.
"Don't rush, your life is still long way forward, just take it easy."
...Father, only if you would know the reason i'm rushing my life forward like this, you would have one more reason to blame yourself, am i right? That's why you will never know and no one does. I'm rushing my life but, father, i am going no where. Untill the day you and the people i care about is in peace, i have still have to rush my life untill then...

And finally, i understand that i probaly don't know what life is. I suddenly understand the reason my brother want to leave, back to Vietnam, to learn what life is. Because here in Sweden, there's no kind of life that we're longing for. Oh no, perhaps i shall say, there's no life for us here, and the Swedes probaly missed out the feeling of life, or how does it feel to live for each other, they probably never felt it....
Brother, whatever you do, i know you do it according to your heart, therefore i'm supporting you in every way. Believe me, one day, i will take off to learn what life really is too.

Last week, my little brother, not realated, but i call him brother anyway. He had his 15 years old birthday. It's been awhile since last time we meet, he has changed a bit, getting taller now and even more grow up-minded. Good that he seems to grow up the right way doesn't matter his living situation is not well.
How can lotus bloom beautiful among all the mud... Little one of mine, i hope you'll get the answer someday. Happy birthday!

Grow up...

2009-09-25T14:01:00.000-07:00
Nobody is perfect, we should never try to be perfect, but we can always try to be better.

I somtimes think back what people said about me, about my works, about my reactions and i found myself laughing. I laugh not because i'm proud or happy over, i laugh because i figure out how childish i was to not taking advices, not being critical enough, in other word, stubborness.
Everyone makes misstake, and then learn from the misstakes. If there is anyone who doesn't learn, he must be the most idiot on this earth, and i'm trying to not be that person haha...

Lately, i've been interested of acting. I know i might not have that kind of talent, still, i would really want to try. How funny it must be to turn yourself a totally different person from yourself. Sometime i take a friend for an example, figure out her personalities, her face expressions, then thinking of myself acting her character. I even pick up an other character that i totally dislike and try putting myself into that character, it's hard...But then, i think this kind of situations happens in acting industry, that you have to act like somebody you would never seeing yourself be friend with.
I just wish i have a chance to do some acting...

By the way....spend some minutes to take a couple pictures today before i went out...suprised by the first picture that turned into the best xD Did i improved my skill infront camera i wonder haha

There's not a single touch of photoshop on me in these pictures, all i did was adjust the lighting a little bit.

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I've been watching Boys before flowers recently, Korean version. It's really a great movie, worthy spending time on. Plus the actors are just so GREAT looking there!! I'm touched by a guy called Kim Bum, his face is just beyond perfect... C.C
Adoreable face.... but then, he looks like someone who loves only hisself...if you know what i meant ._____.
Anyways, i don't really care how his personallity is, it's not like i will have a chance to meet him or something. He's just an eyecandy for me to look at everyday >.<
And here are 120 pictures of him you can download and stare at!

Hair color? ......F*CK that!!!

2009-09-13T09:43:00.000-07:00
Surposed to dye my hair to purple, dark purple, but it turned into wine-red 2 times.... screw it! Went to salon yesterday and dyed it to light brown for one done sake. It's still not the color that i want, will brighten it up next time...

By the way, ever heard the newest album of Gazette? No? GO FIND IT!!! I'm in love with it right now. Their style is just getting more and more awsome, GRACE and BEAUTI in their damn songs. In my opinion, they sure beat Dir en Grey.

My face? My skin? Photoshoped?

2009-09-09T08:01:00.000-07:00
LOL!!
I've been asked many times about my photos, why and how do i get my face flawless, bright and so on. Some even thought i use photoshop to smooth up my skin...

The answer is NO.

some of my pictures you might found the works of Photoshop on skin, but those pictures are model pictures that were taken by photographers. Otherwise, pictures taken by myself is NONE photoshop on skin unless that picture is used to improve my PS skill.

There are many many many tips and techniques to get a good photo without having any touch of PS from how to look beauti in first place and how to make a good picture in second place. Since i'm studying to photographer so i know pretty well how to take a good picture without to rely on PS.
Firstly, always remember to take good care of you skin and face. Using face mask is highly recomended, using any kind that you you prefer. Me, i use cucumber mask ^^

Don't ever try to buy cheap cosmetic or on internet that you are not sure about what they really selling. Sometimes expensive cosmetic is the best on earth.

Exercise is also very important, by getting sweat helps to refesh the skin from the inside.
Eat fruits, drink juice, even milk
Use whitening cream(s) to brighten up your skintone and use other daily cream which you prefer to project your skin from the sun, dust and computer's effects. Me, i choice white lucency from Shiseido, cost a little bit but worth it.

And if you ever want more effectfull result, they got the whole package for this purpose...

And last but not least, nightcream is also recomended. Our skin rebuild when we sleep at night, give it some vitamines will make a big different the morning efter...

That's all the tips from me to keep your skin healthy, beside "Keep away from smoking" of course. Further more, how you use make ups and what is your choice is up to you. Everyone have different face-build, how to make yourself look good wearing make up is something you have to find out by yourself =)

And last thing, photography. You guys who studying this subject i'm sure you guys know it has to do with lighting and angles. Also you, who have experience of self-camwhoring know very well from which angles you look good and which you don't. and you who don't know about all of these at all, i shall repeat...
1.make-ups, use it more or less, as long you're sacrifise with you face by help of cosmetics.
2. Find your face-angles, looking at mirror 20 times a day is not ashamed as you think.
3. Find the light. There must somewhere there the light will lift your face up, somewhere it can cover your weakness on your face. Or if could be somewhere that lift up your weakness instead. It's up to you to find the suitable lighting for your puspose. Don't affraid to use lamp(s) if possible.

These are 3 steps you can make to look good on pictures nor to take a good picture. Aside, a good camera is very highly recomended. Then, when you got your pictures and still not sacrifise with lighting level o color, you might aswell increase or decrease it, and then the job is done.

Try to avoid using Photoshop as much as possible. For the beautiful, Ulzzang faces you might get help from Photoshop but it won't last. We (I) call it for fake Ulzzang and those faker never make it far!

Another day passed by

2009-09-01T14:39:00.000-07:00
One more day that i've learn something new looking at other's photography again, and everytime i keep asking myself "When can be as good as her/him?" It's the question that i know i have to work on to find the answer, not just walking around and confusing myself.

Never quite, never give up! Never think something is beyond your reach because when you get older and look back in time, you might regret that you could have done it, or at least tried it.

One more day passed by and it's one more time i hear how childish my classmate is. Getting angry over a little thing and don't know why people acting like this and that to her. Honestly for an 18 years old girl being that slow make me really disrespect teenagers of this country(luckily not my homeland) and not only her, i've seen many more that for me, they are just as much as a ten years old.

Aside of all of these, i have to say that i'm so happy that Conan 55 released! I've waited for it in two months X.x finally it's in my hand now, can't wait for the next book, hope it won't take so long time. By the way i've noticed that i look like a boy sometime. It's true that i was a tomboy before, when i changed into girly style it suprised me that i could change my appearance so easily. Then again i went for high class and fashion women style and it suprised me one more time. And now from a women into a tomboy hiphop girl....I can't say, what kind of face do i have actually?! Not trying to brag or something, perhaps i could have study cinema instead? And be an actdress? Haha no no, i don't have such skill, at least i don't think i have.

Look like a boy right? x)

Cold summer.

2009-08-28T02:27:00.000-07:00
School start again. This is last year of secondary high school for me. On this day, next year, i will find myself in Guthenburg and starting university. i don't know if i can make it with the economy, i need to save as much as i can... and it's hard to save money for someone like me. I've already ordered a new camera and 2 objectives for 20k, now i even need money to get PS CS4 and Lightroom, a new graphic screen to be able to work with the quality of pictures from a Canon 500D. Speaking of the camera, i was going to buy a 5D markII but then i got some tips from a profestional camera man so i decided to get a cheaper one instead. It would be enough for me from now. Futhermore, i need to get some stuffs for lighting instead. Photography is mostly about lighting afterall.

One more thing that steal away my money is Fashion, i'm pretty sure that i've fallen for it more and more, i keep update the latest both on the internet and in real life, walking around and stare at every store. Gosh, i'm sick i know -.-
but one thing i have to say is that Swedish fashion is way far behind Korean fashion, i can say they got almost the same style but not much creative as Korean. I just love Asian style ~~

this is me xD i take picture of my clothes sometime to keep track of my oufits. It's a tip to avoid the situation"standing infront the closet not knowing what to wear". You guys should do it too, trust me it helps ;)

Now, what more can i say...It's been a cold summer, lot of rain. Every now and then i still remember someone that i've shattered, i was hurt aswell. Not long after that i got invited to a boat trip and got to know an old rich man (probably). By that moment i really realized how money can put you in a game of mind, that every man in this world think they can buy anyone with money and glory. Silly, an old 40+ man kept throwing things out of his mouth like "vila house, porsche 911, boss of this and that company...." to someone as young as his daughter like me, doesn't convince me at all, not even a little.
I drank really much that night. The more i drank the more i realize how unclever Swedish man is in hooking up women, at least i haven't met one who is cleaver in this. Been many young boys came to me instead and that was never something i'm playing with since 16 years old. Schoolboys, i'm so done with them. I also realize that money is also important for me, but there's something even more important, talent. Without a talent, you can't make money, you can't make a name in this world.
I was really tired and so down by the more i thought and drank. I thought this world was so unfair to me, i never wanted to go through all that i had to go through and grew up in a family culture that money was the main business. My mind grew up more than what i needed...
I thought i was about to cry that night but tears never came out. It bursted inside but it was not the time to cry yet.

Back on track.

2009-08-17T07:13:00.000-07:00
Summer is over, and here i am again. Haven't been a good summer because of the rain, but luckily still had some photo shoots, both as model and photographer. Gonna take time to work with them all. But it's cool, actually i'm pretty ready to work with them all when the school start again, somehow i feel pretty ready for this last year of high school. I really need to get up and stop being lazy like i did last year .______. Ok, here are some photos taken by Vincent.L that i managed to edit so far.

Best shot of the day =D

About 3 weeks ago i found an amazing korean rock song TOY by Moon Hee Jun while watching Arirang. It's so typical style of him and i just love it. The actress was so pretty and i found the guitarist was also very hot =P Love his style ~~

Sacrificed myself...

2009-06-29T03:44:00.000-07:00
Let's start with silence.
Sometime we don't have to talk at all to feel and understand each other. Sometime we don't have to look at each other's face to know what we feel. That's connected feelings.

"Some people are connected to each other."
In order to understand this phrase completely, i made a silly decision that i did not expect the result to turn out so opposite of what i've planed. I pick up a guy that i met not long ago, played, graved with his feelings, as i was also playing with my own feeling. That was what i wanted... I wanted to find more about emotions, whatever it would be happy, joy, sad, hurt... i wanted to be a person ful of feeling than to be one with no feeling at all as how i was in the past. And i succed... There was a connecting between me and him, it was because we were so likely to each other. I did not need to talk to him to feel how he felt and thinking about the troubles i made, i was trying to put my foot in his shoe all the time, untill i got a fireback...
Gravity, that's what i would call his passion. I was so draged by it so that i did not want to be blinded by my own feelings, and i told that person the same thing. Don't let your feelings blind your eyes.
"How is it blinding my eyes?"
That was the last thing he said before he fell to sleep like a child. And i never answered it, i could not answer it...

It all was a backfire to me. I succeed to be able to feel with my heart, to listen to other's heart. But i failed to keep and treasure what i had...

To all my friends out there, whatever if you understand what i'm telling ya'll right now or not, i'm still happy to say it loud. There are hard times, bad times, there is joyful moment, loveable moment, there is sadness, pain and tears. Whatever it is that you felt and feel, just feel and accept it. Never try to run away or forget it. Because it's all memories and feelings that prove we are human, we have our heart of mankind, and because it's scary to not feel anything at all.

Back to JRock

2009-06-05T08:24:00.000-07:00

It has been a while since i listened to Jrock last time, although i didn't really miss it, but now i hear it again, it really brings my emotion on fire again, which i though i've lost a bit of during these months.
I will listen to JRock again, yes, and during this summer, if i happen to work in Norway and don't have time to spend my days on dancing. Then i will fill my mind, my heart with JRock again.

I loved and still love Dir En Grey, but mostly their old songs. I don't really like they way they changed into really hard metal. For me their best songs are forever "The final", "Kodou", "Glass skin" and "Yokan".

Ok, enough about this. I just got pictures of my lask work as Make-up artist, here they are =)
Photographer is Christer Persson as well =)
Model: Louis and Sandra

Captured a retouch technique.

2009-06-04T15:18:00.000-07:00
Yesterday i sat and worked with pictures, i managed to discovered a retouch technique on portrait by paying little more time on retouching. I'm really glad that i've discovered it, and today i tried to do the same way and even better, putting more time into it of course =) hihi

Yah! they are the pics that i finally got from my photo shoot and spent like 8 hours retouching them @.@ but then, i really love the result ^______^
Last weekend, we had a wedding shoot outdoor, i was there as assisstant, although i haven't done anything much i think >.<>

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By the way i just found back a song of High and Mighty color that i haven't heard in very long time since they day they released it, it's so good now i hear it, give me a wonderful feeling =)
Well, enjoy it ~~

Time is runing out....

2009-06-03T11:13:00.000-07:00
It's summer break soon and it's time for me to hand in the laptop, which means i cannot edit photos, checking news and communicate on internet for a while. It makes me really sad ... =( But well, i hope i will get the job in Norway so that i won't have time to think about photos and stuffs, because i really can't stand one month without taking some photos >.< align="left">
But before it all going to happen, i took my spare time today and took some last photos and worked with undone photos, took me 6 hours already and still got a lot left xD, and more to come.... i still haven't receieve pictures from the Fashion show, the photo shoot in Gothenburg, the photo shoot i had 2 weeks ago and last week ..... -.- I want to work with them all before handing in my laptop.

For some reason i think i did a good job retouching the last one xDD i really like it though x)
And here is some photos from the shoot for Theress' project that i was modeling for, i didn't edit much, they were very good pictures already =)

I will hopefully upload more of my last works tomorrow or friday, before my laptop is saying goodbye to me.
Now, time for more editing =)))

Stockholm again...

2009-05-25T09:05:00.000-07:00
This is the last time of this month i'm going to Stockholm. The reason why i'm here again is because for the InpsirAsian fashion show. Me, my brother and my friend were chosen as model, so i was there again.
The day was kind of stressy, which i knew it was going to be. I also met new people and stuffs, funny enough, but it was so weary tired. I mean, me and my brother drove car like 4 hours and when we got there we didn't even have time to take a rest.

They took very many pictures, i have seen some but i wanna see more, exspecially pictures of the guy with his big camera, i don't know if the pictures turned out well but i fell in love with his camera xD. Oh, and i paid attention to him in the end too, when he came back to the building with his white shirt and black jacket, he looked sort of elegent hihi

After 1.15am the show was done and time for us model to party, although we couldn't party much but still. At first i couldn't dance at all because i felt tired, but when i've bought myself a drink and finished it, my blood went hot haha, and i joined the dance "competition" on the stage and rocked it xDD Damn, i felt good afterward..
I will upload more pictures from the show when i've receive from that camera man =P

Crazy day....

2009-05-21T09:27:00.000-07:00
Let's see where to start... i had a photo shoot competition in Gothenburg yesterday, it went good for me i think... but it's not the thing that turned crazy....

Me and my friends went to the disco after the shoot.... the story starts from here. First, my friend's cousin couldn't get in because she's not 18 yet. Well...we knew this could happen but, she was also one of the model in photo competition. So she had to went back to the hotel or where-ever. After a discussion they all went back except me and my friend ( we were 6).

Ok it was not funny to begin with. Later, when i got into the disco, it was not a disco -.- it was a bar.... and lots of Swedish people, which i did not expected because it was going to be an Asian party >.< . I got mad by then and ordered 2 drinks one after another, and i got high ... haha. About half hour later more Asian people came and we turned a coner of the bar into a dancefloor, now i'm talking about Asian power muahaha.
I meet a lot of people and friends i knew from internet that i never met before. It was worth it so i forgot about the anger hihi... Plus we received some drinks from people i know there, which made us more high. I knew i was drunk so i just took it easy, talking with people....Then, my friend shocked me .______. I heard a loud noise behind me and wondered what it was.....
My friend were dancing on the table!! xDDD
I mean, the girl gone wild lol, and even though this one is just a little party but it's perhaps the most crazy party i've been in. I myself was drunk enough and talked and stuffs that i shouldn't be talking about, and lot's of other stuffs also happened during the night, which i don't really want to mention.
But yeah.... the night was CRAZY!

Hello blog!

2009-05-18T14:04:00.000-07:00

Here i am, started a blog. I just though i would have a place to write about my days and improve my English writing.(I'm too lazy to make a website >.<
I was in Stockholm in weekend to attend a model audition, it went good. Plus, i met a friend that i got to know from internet. She's very nice and lovely girl =) We went shopping and had really fun, although i was very tired in the end, because i've been walking around whole day with heels. My feet still hurt a little bit today =P

Tomorrow is tuesday. Time for me to get back to school, i've been away for some model jobs and tired-ness. I hope the teachers won't be mad at me =(